Monday, November 1, 2010

Painful struggles.

I'm beginning to find society more and more painful. As a parent we try to teach our children not to judge, play nice, be kind and for what reason. When our children go to school they do not act upon these request. We talk about bullies and how to stop them. The real bullies however are not the children but the parent of those children. I live in poverty. I do my very best to provide a safe and happy home for my kids. But for someone who has learned though hardship to watch the world pass by, it's hard to see the thing that go on even in my little town. We as a town have experienced tremendous growth in the last seven years. I moved back home to raise my kids in a safe community. I did not know that we as a broken family would be judged by so many people. I've watch my daughter struggle for acceptance and understanding. To have a friend one day then to have no friends the next. It's not easy raise children with unseen disabilities. I have been fighting since she was little for help. The fact that I'm having to fight for this help is because I'm poor. Heck I have the same problem when I take my pets to the vet. People in our society look at those less fortunateness and judge us. We Either have a drug problem or we're lazy or we abuse the system. The system which is to help. Yes I'm just ranting but that's because I can't sand by and watch any more. I want the parents of the kids who my little girl tried to make friends with to hear me. I want the school who's in my daughters life more then I am to her me. I want the world to know that enough is enough. I we all just stop judging each other on how we look; who we date; where we work; or what anything and started with "hi I'm Jay and I like the colour green!" God does not judge me so why are you. So what I live is a house thats needing work. Maybe you could ask me if you could fix something. Maybe you could just come in for tea and get to know me when you drop you kid off to play instead of never coming back.  Instead of treating us differently include us. I feel all parent should include all the kids even if some one is different. Just because you can't see the pain does not mean your not causing it. To ever person there is a reason why you do the thing you do maybe it's time to look out side the box. I feel that as a society we still live in clicks. They are every where and in every culture. I feel that this pain my family is in is because of these different clicks. There are clicks at school with telling my daughter she's a goth. Theres clicks at church. Theres clicks at work. I could go on but I think you get the point. So I'm poor. I still have food. I've gotten the internet, I even have cool things others don't want. But that does not change my personality. I'm still friendly, I love to host, I love animals. I still love sitting in a hot bath to relax. What changes is that you look at my house and you judge me. My daughter gets upset at school and you judge her. My pet get sick and you watch it suffer. It's easy not to do anything but not today I'm telling you to stop judging and get to know us. That's what I'm going to say about this. I hope it opens everyones eyes up into how much they judge each other.